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[Oct. 7th, 2006|04:41 am] |
divine intervention
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God is trying to save me...
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[Oct. 7th, 2006|04:11 am] |
so i literally forgot this site existed for a while.
i used to pour my stupidness into these entries, but i randomly stopped one day?
so school has been okay i guess, but i need to start working harder.
boys are stupid. you tell a guy you like him, and then he starts ignoring you? like... i can take a fucking hint asshole. i know its because im fat. guys dont like fat girls. whatever. my mom says even fat girls get married so ill just listen to her.
ive been so down in the dumps lately. ughh. i just wake up every morning and i just dont want to get out of bed. i think i might be anemic again. UGHH IRON JUST BE ABSORBED BY MY BODY PLEASE.
i think im going to stop taking all of my medecine, no more anti anxiety or borth control, or anything... just iron pills and vitamins.
watch me change my mind tomorrow?
UGHHH.
i just want to be free of everything, free of everyone.
i feel like... no matter what i just keep being dissapointed by people, even the ones closest to me cant keep their word.
whatever.
if it wasnt for jeremy right now, id probably be oding right now. UGHHH.
WORST WEEK EVER. |
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[Aug. 17th, 2006|04:01 pm] |
so last night was pretty entertaining i guess. me, chris, daniel and amy chilled after work. i randomly got so high? like... i couldnt function. it was fucked. but i had a good time... and i love friends from work. alot. and i think thats the reason i dont want to quit. because i know i wont see these people all the time anymore. fuck no frills, you ruin my life.
so my parents have realized that they cant change me by grounding me/ banning me from phone, television, computer etc. so i want to go out. and watch step up. please? soon? channing tatum?
and i realize that i have to put my foot down and fucking take my g1...i dont know why its taken more than 3 years to do something this simple? i need to be shot. now. haha
so my dad tells me that i have to go visit my god parents tonight. so i guess i have to delay m,e watching step up? IV E ALREADY WAITED A FUCKING WEEK. FUCK.
i need sleep. |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2006|03:07 pm] |
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such an ugly sunday afternoon. but at least i had a morning shift at work, so im home now.
last night me, sandie, kali and ali, went to see brand new. wow. i mean... they were amazing. im so glad i went, even though yesterday was kind of a shitty day. meh.
last night, i didn something i shouldnt have. i thought about someone from the past, someone who i shouldnt even give the time of day. ughh i hate my life. i dont know why i let stupid things get to me.
for some reason ive been really emotional lately.
sinead and allana slept over, and theyre being crazy as usual. i didnt sleep last night because off al their screa,ing. effing kids.
haha i love them.
my daddy was nice today and let me rent a movie. i sooo wanted shes the man, but they were all out, so i just got an old fave, 40 year old virgin. hahah
i should watch it soon i guess.
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[Jul. 21st, 2006|02:24 am] |
so today was a cute day.
me, sandie, lucasz and natalie headed to hamilton to paint natalies bedroom for when she moves into her new house for school. we painted it green and yellow. it looks so cute.
we randomly saw this on the way? and decided it was picture worthy.
haha
her rooms looks super cute.
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SEE.
we also left her a secret message.
dont ask?
all in all a very cute day.
ugh but then when i got home... i got upset all over again? about a stupid nameless boy.
i just keep telling myself that ill be fine, especially because one day the whole human race will be female. and then girls wont have to deal with shit like this. ohh evolution. you are amazing. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2006|07:01 pm] |
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i guess its kind of stupid for me to be upset?
but he was my first love? i dont know. i mean... i know im over him, but i guess it just hirts to see him with someone else. is she prettier than me? is she better than me? i dont know. i feel so dumb for even worrying about such a stupid thing.
my moms right. im only upset because i dont have a boyfriend right now.
on another note. my mom totally cleaned up my room. its spotless. and i love it. and i also put up pics of friends and posters. okay. its lame that all of the posters are basically of the cast of highschool musical, BUT IM IN LOVE WITH THE MOVIE. it is my obsession.
i havent been up to anything really lately. no frills is the same. the ukranian men fixing my basement are still yelling in their loud and foreign language.
just one more week. UGHH.
im on a diet. ive lost 9 pounds so far. its basically, eat breakfast and a small lunch and NO DINNER. honestly, if you dont eat after 5 or 6, you lose weight so fast!
yeyeye. im going to find a hot boy at school this year. although... utm doesnt have very many, i think i counted 1? and thats adrian. aahahahaha.
i put together my schedule. so im taking italian, philosophy, womens studies, environment and religion second sem. i like my scedule, but i want to take an english? stupid rosi. i hate that site. meh. hopefully everything will work out.
sandies coming to pick me up. were going to have a cuuute night with her cousin from poland. hes so foreign and amusing.
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[Jul. 4th, 2006|04:43 pm] |
sauble was cute. amazing sun. amazing people. SUNBURNT.
alot of pics. but im way too lazy to put em up.
didnt really sleep well last night. my back hurt too much. EFF YOU SUN. im italian, this isnt supposed to happen.
blah
im so irritable at the moment.everyone is bothering me. my best friend doesnt even realize how much i love her. ugh. this is why i hate boys. not only do they screw us up, they make it hard for us to communicate because of all the drama. FUCK. i just want things to be back to normal.
blah.
welbutrine you dont work for me. I NEED MORE OF YOU. |
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[May. 4th, 2006|09:52 pm] |
so lately, i find that its been hard to trust people. even the ones im closest too. i dont get it. its like, one second i feel completely amazing and i know everyone around me is perfect and i love them and everything is honest and fine. and then the next second its gone. its just gone. one second i feel immensly close to someone and then the next second i honestly feel like thers nobody. i dont get it. i really dont. i dont think im supposed to feel like this. im not completely lost in the situation though, i know why i feel like this, i just need someone to love me as much as i love them. i dont think ill even get the feelings i want reciprocated, no matter who they are, boyfriends, best friends, family.
basically, today just really sucks.
and i want to feel more complete.
this entry isnt even making any sense.
i truly am a blonde.
whatever.
i suck at life. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2006|03:21 pm] |
so basically, this whole week hasnt been going my way. im incredibly sick, some may even call it leprosy. i havent had as much study time as i would have liked, due to the fact that im dying and cant study. i dropped my cell phone in a l;ake? dont ask. it happend. my dad hates me. seriously. even though i told him not to be so mean and then called him tan tan. ughh tan tan, you will be the death opf me. ohh well. im just going to do this exam, and get it over with. eff you psych. then i will meet up with nikki, see dar for a bit and then eventually me and nik will end up with kal? then i think she has plans with vince so me and nikki will end up doing something incredibly crazy like go to the ill scarlett show? haha
ughh. i hate/ love my life?
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|09:42 am] |
so today is my day to study? ughh and the best part is. IM SO SICK. i didnt sleep all night, I COULDNT BREATH OUT OF MY FUCKING NOSE. ughh im so pissed. im sooo tired too, but i just cant sleep/breath. whatever. exams are here and i have my first one tomorrow. english. kill me. 4 exams. 4!!! i just want may to come faster?
honestly. this summer is going to be amazing. i have this feeling.
im going to eat right, exercise more, get extensions and get a tan.
ughh it will be amazing.
plus ill be 19?
woo hoo?
ughh.
SUMMER COME HERE. NOW???
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|03:29 pm] |
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[Apr. 9th, 2006|03:12 pm] |
ughh i never update you anymore lj!!!
haha
ughh.
so this weekend. eventful yet uneventful.
friday i worked, then me luke and rob went out for dinner.
at jing thai. ughh prickly heat.
then saturday, me, kali and luke went downtown and chilled.
we never fail to amuse people on the subway? * makes a weird motion with her legs.
ughh then today i went to work.
why do you flirt with me and then make no moves? eff you.
UGHH.
tomorrow is the last day opf school?
i hate you psych. |
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[Mar. 20th, 2006|03:18 pm] |
so im at school. yeah. school. in the library. you know, where most people do work? yeah. not me. im on myspace and lurking and trying my best at all costs to avoid homework? ughh i need to start working. school hates me right now.
but yeah. i havent updated this shizz in a while. gah. i have become so lazy.
i dont know. i find that the more i stay away from lj the less i have to write? which doesnt really make any sense because clearly i should have ore to write if i hadnt updated in a while? yeah, im not making any sense.
grrr.
im not going to mestion any names but... i like him. alot. i dont know if he knows? ughh. every time i see him i just melt. its not even just a physical attraction. its just him. everything about him is perfect and amazing and right. i just wish he felt the same about me? i dont know.
boys are so confusing.
i give up. gah
ill become a les?
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the point of this entry is... i have too many distractions and i just need to fucking sit down and do my homework.
fuck. |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2006|11:30 pm] |
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today was a fun day. i went to school with kali. it was so cute. we randomly went to an ice festival? and we went shopping. aww it was such a cute day.i would ellaborate, but i think kali already ddi that. haha<3 |
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[Feb. 21st, 2006|12:10 pm] |
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today is a tuesday. i am home because it is reading week. i am incredibly bored at home. haha. i have nothing to say. i am on the phone with chris. he is incredibly amusing. ie. RETARDED. HE SAYS HE WANTS TACOS? okay. but yeah. i havent updated this shizz in a while. and i thought that maybe i should? i dunno. all i know is that today is going to be amazing? yeah. i love my friends. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|11:00 pm] |
ughh, my two midterms are done and reading week is soon. just gotta get through work tomorrow and friday. yay.
ughh i havent updated this thing in a while. awdjidjiw3urw2 im so busy yet not at the same time?
hopefully, my new project will work out. <3 |
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[Jan. 28th, 2006|10:39 pm] |
so yesterday was a cute day.
i went to school to find out that my italian class was cancelled so i chilled with sandie and kristin. then me and sandie went to buy her babcia flowers for her b day. it was so cute. she was so happy. then we went to my house for some cute bonding time. sandie got to play with my guinea, although, im not sure if shes scared of her or not haha. so then sandie was nice enough to drive me to islington so i could take the subway to meet kal. so me and kal met up and did some shopping. then we headed over to new tribe. we had a bit of a wait so we just sat and listened in on peoples conversations around us. we even amde friends with 15 year olds who were getting their belly buttons peirced? haha ohh man. then we finally went in. i got my septum done. at first i thought it was kind of crooked but it fixed itself. and then kali got her lip done. it looks soooooooooooooooo good on her. she was made for it. i think septum looks cute on me. although, mandy at work said it looks like i have a staple in my nose? mmmmmmmmmk.
so then me kali, ryan and luke went to see the new movi, karla, the one about the bernardo, holmoka case. that mopvie was messed. although BPAUL BERNARDO DID GET HIGHLIGHTS! FROST AND GLOW BLONDE BUT ONLY IN THE FRONT. it was amazing. haha
so then after the movie me and kali went home and decided we were extremely tired and that we were going to go to bed. but somehow, we ended up staying up till 3 am being retarded on meetmeinto. haha. kalis brother is so amused by us. and he said the septum suited me so that gave me some hope.
and supposedly i have paul bernardos haircut?
ughh.
WHATEVER.
today at work sucked pretty much.
although, i did get to se HIM for a bit, so i was happy. :)
i need to start dating casually again?
yes?
KAY.
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[Jan. 23rd, 2006|03:21 pm] |
ughh i havent updated in so long. i havent really even been busy, just avoiding typing an entry? but yeah. things have been good lately. i realize that im actually hyappy with mny life right now and the people in it.
my friendsd are whats keeping me going. seriously. i realize that i dont need a nameless boy to rely on and if i listenend to my friends advice in the first polace then none of this bullshit would have happened. needless to say, i will never make such a stupid mistake again.
ughh. today sandie made me watch the movie "closer". it was actually amazing. it made me think so clearly about love and relationships. its one of those movies that after you watch you feel like you know the secret to the universe and life itself. it was unreal. definitely one of my favourites now.
i skipped psych class again, which means i will be attending it on wednesday? i dont know. but i cant decide of i should go to my soc tutorial either. i went to carlenes today, so i guess i sort of have it covered?
enough about school.
im sick of worrying about it.
lying is the most fun a girl can have withgout taking off her clothes. but its better if you do. <3closer. |
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[Jan. 13th, 2006|01:22 pm] |
man... i havent updated this thing in sooooo long, due to lack on internet!
and its funny because now that i actually have internet again i feel as though i have nithuing to say?
ohh well..
tonight is nicoles party. i am so excited. nicoles oarties are awlays good.
SLEEPOVER.
ughh i love my friends.
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[Dec. 14th, 2005|09:48 pm] |
ughh.
i havent updated in a while.
basically really enjoying my time off. im thanking god that i dont have any exams yet.
although i really do wish i had more to do during the day?
my days so far have existed of sleeping, watching sabrina and then finally ending with me, kali and luke playing isketch for like 3 hours?
ahhaha i love you guys so much.
im trying so hard to keep my mind off you. but today i folded. but im stronger now. because i know now that im completely fine without you.
i love christmas time.
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